Faith isn’t the ability to believe long and far into the misty future.
It’s simply taking God at His Word and taking the next step.
– Joni Erickson Tada
Living by faith has a way of disrupting your comfort.
We work hard to establish our lives. We desire to build a solid foundation for our families that will provide a surplus of comfort and convenience in the future as we daily balance a life of faith. Then, an earthquake of conviction rattles us, it shakes us and the lives we have worked so hard to stabilize as we sense a leading to the unfamiliar.
So – how does you process the whirlwinds of life that occur when you have taken the step of faith and your routine of life has been replaced by second guesses?
What living by faith has done to our lives.
Late last year, my family began a signifiant, two-fold transition that still remains unseen for us to define the new norm. The life we once knew with familiar structure has been replaced with each new day of surprises and uncertainties.
Being moved by a sincere desire to align our lives with the need for more foster care parents in our area, my wife and I took a step of faith last year and were approved to become resource parents. The seven-month wait from approval to our first placement seemed long as the various calls for placement opportunities sent us into multiple fire drills of preparations only to receive notice that no placements would occur for us those nights.
Then finally at the end of March, one of our unpredictable days ended with a precious little girl being discharged from a brief hospital stay and placed into our home.
The moment I saw the social worker step from her car with this fragile little one in her arms, I felt my heart open in a way that I did not expect. The months of training and preparations behind us, the new reality ahead of us.
Our lives now filled with doctor’s appointments, family visits, department of children services telephone calls, emails, text messages, paperwork….and bless my wonderful wife’s heart for taking charge of all the minute details, so I could focus more energy on my new work.
My new work sort of began late last year as well. A number of impromptu meetings and telephone calls began to stir my mind to with a bunch of ‘what-ifs’ scenarios. Prayerfully discussing the details with my wife and sharing some insights with our pastor, a potential bucket-list dream became a reality after years of dreaming. In February, I officially launched my own company: www.bowendigital.com.
Today, the reality of this new journey before me and my family is the fact that every day seems to be a new start. Sunday night blues are a memory as I early jumpstart my Monday morning very early in the morning with reporting and preparations for the week ahead with my growing roster of clients.
Still as the waves of excitement surf over me, the undertow of uncertainty does deliver its periodic blog of anxiety for this type A personality of mine who tends to feel more secure when life is predictable.
All the while, living in faith and trusting our Lord that this season of foster care and employment transition intersect within the perfect timing that He has confirmed for us.
Overwhelmed, at times? Yes.
Exhausting? Oh, yes.
But we trust Him, and we choose to take God at His Word as we take this next step….together.
“From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings.
– Psalm 61:2-4